realm of reality

Yes finally I’m off today! Well, and I’ve got nothing to do at home. Just a  few days ago I was wishing for this day to come so I can relax! But now it’s here, I also dunno what to do with it!

But what’s worse is the thought of reporting to work tomorrow. And I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s stressing me out! I dunno why I’m feeling this way but I really dread going to work. It’s like every moment I’m thinking about it; what will it be like today? Good or Bad? I’m scared of calls! Last week I even felt like resigning!

Maybe it just takes time. Cuz I’m feeling much better now, a bit more confident. And I don’t feel like I should resign just yet cuz I’m getting the hang of it now. So yeah, it takes time to master the product well, what to do in certain situations etc.

And once I’m almost familiar with my product knowledge and know what to do and how it should be handled, it should be a breeze then. No wonder some pple can stay so long in this line.

Some of my colleagues had given me some encouragement in staying and it’s true that in the beginning it’s tough. It’s like when you just started mastering Maths it was tough, but after many rounds of practice, no problem can get in your way!

And I hope for this day to come. Patience. There’s still a lot of things to learn from and everyday is a learning process. Even those who have been here for years still have queries to many of the customer’s questions.

Some tell me to look at it positively and it won’t seem all that bad. Treat it like I’m helping someone to solve their problems instead of focusing on how they put it across to me. Even though there are times some pple are stupid to understand the problem but our job is to get it across to them.

Another also tells me it’s such an easy job if you look at it positively! Don’t bother of what they say! No where out there is paying you this much just to do what you’re doing! It’s such an easy job and they pay you well!

Well they better be paying us well man! Cuz if they were paying lesser I would definitely leave. It’ not worth it at all ok! I could become crazy one day if I was not emotionally stable enough. Then they only pay you a measely salary of thousand plus GROSS every month? Puh-leaseeee… totally not worth at all. So of cuz they should pay me more! Else in the first place I wouldn’t have taken up the job.

(I’m not trying to say a thousand plus gross every month is little. I’m trying to say that it’s not worth working for that amont; I rather work elsewhere which isn’t that stressed. I mean 1000+ can range from 1100 - 1900 right! Well of cuz not below 1500 cuz is totally cannot make it la. I work part time also can get that amount)

Yeah I’m trying; this is such a negative job. You get to hear all the negative comments everyday. But I only tell myself one thing: Think of the MONEY! That’s the only thing I’m working for cuz I’m definitey not working for the fun the job. HEY THIS JOB ISN’T FUN AT ALL OK. So I really shouldn’t take it to heart.

Tough job. Maybe should consult zeekee on human behaviour and how to handle them! LOL. Or zeekee should be in my job for some experience on all kinds of pple! Well you really need a positive mind and attitude in this job so that it does not affect your life. Cuz I believe it could really affect you. Just like now, I’m afraid to go to work!

But I really got to think positively now. I hope. I mean how can you feel great when pple say things like, “It’s such a stupid procedure; You and your organisation you are working for is dumb; SHUT UP; You’re irritating; Your organisation is causing me a lot of problems (which is their own mistakes ok!)” etc.

And you have to bear with their SHOUTING and rantings and complains and unhappiness and inconvenience and disappointments and suggestions etc. Which mostly isn’t our fault that happens. It’s due to their stupidity that causes such things and they put the blame on us.

Stupid pple right? If I could I surely will give them a good one. But no choice I can’t! So many kinds of pple in the world. I wish I could eliminate all of them! Rarrrrgh!!!

Sounds like time for more CRISIS CORE! I’ve been playing it frequently while on the way to work these few days. It’s the only game in the psp I can play lo. The bobo put all his motor GP, car racing, vitual tennis, boxing, soccer games inside and deleted my GOLDEN COMPASS and PUZZLE QUEST! Now I can only play crisis core.

I WANT TO PLAY MY GOLDEN COMPASS ALTHOUGH I’VE COMPLETED IT. I STILL WANT TO PLAY! stupid bobo.

Hello there! I’m back! It’s been almost 2 months since I last updated. The last update I was so afraid to start work and wondered how will it be. And now, I’ve been at “work” for almost 2 months already! How time flies.

In these 1 over month, many things happened which is too much to write here. Too bad for being too busy man! Always don’t get the time to do my own stuff!

Anyway Friendster is being an ass again by changing the blog skin. Now I have to choose some other ugly skin of theirs. Not that my previous skin was nice la, it was sucky too (what do expect from friendster!). But it’s leychey to choose new one lor. And I’m so lazy to customize also. So I’ll just live with what they have.

In this week, I was super angry la! I bought KFC for the bee for dinner and brought it to his house. I was super hungry! I bought 2 sets of 2 pc chicken meal, both drinks changed to ice lemon tea, addition popcorn chicken, additional cheese dip and I changed my 2 side dishes of cole slaw and whipped potato to 2 regular fries instead.

Kinda pity the people who takes my order because wherever I go and whatever I eat, surely got something I don’t want or something I wanna change or something I would like extra for etc. FUSSY! But who knows these people are actually happy to do this service for me right! So need not pity all of them ya!

So when I got to the bees house, I was so anxious to rip open the box! I was starving. But then, *eerie music* it was a nightmare for me! YOU KNOW WHAT? OMG! So angry! The 2 regular fries was MISSING! You know what is MISSING? MIA! YES!

It means the idiot didn’t put it in! HE CHEATED ME OF MY FEELINGS AND FRIES! I was so angry with myself for not checking before leaving lor! MY FRIES! I kept complaining to the bobo liat. Poor bobo liat. HAHA!

A lesson learnt:
When buying fast food over the counter, always check if the staff is trying to CHEAT YOU!
Always check for your fries before you leave.
Always check your purchase before leaving.

Remember this lesson and you will never be cheated on losing your fries again! Yeah!

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Work had been not too bad for the first month as all we did was training. Super relax! How I wish we could be in training for a whole year! There were times to be stress during training but that was only for a day. That’s when our test dates arrive! PANIC!

All was well for all the tests! We had to pass at least on 2nd attempt on 80% passing mark! Super high expectations right. And the horror of all horrors came when it was mock call time!

Those few days we were giving mock calls to one another trying to test each other for practice. But it was still so scary no matter what as you would never know what your question will be for the real thing! I’m happy that all of us manage to get over with it and proceed to SVC!

Now, I’ve been picking live calls for about 10 days already. Not that stressed out anymore. The 1st day of SVC I almost died! It was super scary. There were so many things we had to adhere to. And many many many things I didn’t know how to handle.

Even though there might be questions which we could answer as we learnt this before during training, somehow you just don’t know how to apply it when it hits you.

But as the days go by, you can slowly feel that you’ve got the hang of it. Like when you get a question that you previously didn’t know how to handle but you now already know how to because you solved it previously, you could answer the questions immediately without any hesitation.

GREAT! But there are still many more things to discover and learn from. So I’m super afraid to go to my team. I hope training could go on forever!

Just a few more days before I start my “new” life. My new working life. OH NO! I’m shivering right now just at the thought of it. It’s like I can no longer be as free as last time. No more sleeping till the late afternoon, waking up as and when I like, going out as and when I’m happy, NO MORE OF MANY MORE THINGS!

I can no longer be a bummer. And I like bumming. Isn’t that sad! It’s like you being a dancer but one day some one breaks your legs and tells you “NO! NO MORE OF THESE DANCING! NO MORE BEING A DANCER!” And you can no longer be a dancer ever again even if you wish to defy that person who told you not to dance. Why? Because that bloody arse broke your legs! Hahaha! Ok a bit exaggerated but it’s just like that!

The feeling is like NO TURNING BACK! It’s like I would have to slog for the rest of my life! I’m no longer 16 or 18, I’m freaking 21 already! (21 years, 3 weeks and 3 days to be exact) Gosh I feel so old now!

If I don’t start slogging now, when do I start then? Then once when I’ve started, when can I stop? Who can tell me? Can I even stop in the first place? Once I’ve stop, what am I to do to survive in this world? I’ll need the stable income for the future; for my parents, for marriage, for a roof over my head, for my future children, for my future everything! Do you think I’ll be able to stop? I don’t think so!

So like I said, there’s no turning back! Unless I intend to take a long break to enjoy life once more like I never did. But still I would have to return back to slogging days after I’m done enjoying life. Or unless I strike a few millions in the lottery! YES! Then I wouldn’t need to think so much! Yes, continue dreaming.

Bobo liat’s dad once told us that life is like a never-ending marathon. When you start running, you can’t stop. You’ll have to try to run the race all the way till the end in order to provide a living for your children and family no matter how tired you are. But once your children are all grown up and can find a living for themselves, they carry on the race for you. Where they will run in your place and you can finally take a rest. And it goes on and on…

But after running for so long, you have wasted your life slogging. Trying all ways to bring in a better income for the future. But did you have a choice? If you were to stop running and give up half way, would there be a day where some one would run the race for you?

In order to survive in this world (or more like singapore), you can never retire at a young age. Everything is so expensive here! And it’s just getting more and more expensive over time. There’s no way you can stop. So once I’ve started, I can’t stop. If I’m thinking of stopping, then what will happen to my future then? For the future, I can’t stop. No matter how much I dread it. And I really DREAD IT!

It’s time where my wings are strong enough to fly. No more staying in my nest, being fed by my parents. One day I would have to BE like my parents. Fly off to find shelter and food to feed the young. I can’t possibly stay in my nest forever expecting my parents to take care of me forever. One day my parents wings will grow weak in age and can no longer fly, then who will be there to feed me?

Just when I am able to fly, when I take my first flight I am certainly scared. And I might not succeed at first, but I have to keep trying. Once I’m stable, I start my new life. And I can’t stop flying! Else I will fall from the sky.

When I was studying, I hated school and studies and envied those who have graduated. At that time, many people said that studying’s the best. But of course I felt it was a chore. Now when I’ve graduated and have to start finding a job. Somehow I really agree with that now. When you are young, you wish you could get older soon! But once when you’re older, how you wish you were young again.

How weird life is right. When you were young and innocent, the world was like a perfect image in your head. Loving parents, no betrayals and back stabbings, no scandals, no fights, no worries. But now when you’re older, you know what’s going on around you, you no longer feel this world in the same way. This world is scary.

I don’t know if I will like my job. But I’m sure I’ll get sick of it in time. I mean who doesn’t? But you can’t always get what you want. And you will always expect more than your expectations. That’s why you are always not satisfied in life. So now, all I look at is $$$. This job may be boring (picking calls leh! of course boring) but at least what I’m looking at now is the salary they will be paying me. It’s my expected salary (cuz of shift allowance) so I’ll gladly work just for that.

With all my irrelevant experiences, it’s not easy to find a job that’s willing to pay you my expected. So what if I got a degree? There are heaps of degree holders out there! Why should they pay you well just because you are a degree holder? They can always find some one else who could also be a degree holder! It’s not like being a degree holder is a rare thing.

I really regret working at Raffles because it is a total waste of my experiences! I don’t know why back then I didn’t think of my future. Like if I were to go into F&B line, then Raffles will be good. But I knew that in the future, I will never do F&B. But I still continued to work there. Because all I wanted was to earn that money for the time being just for extra allowance to pay my bills and transport fees.

But if I didn’t work at Raffles then I wouldn’t have met bobo liat. So it could be a blessing in disguise! Even if I didn’t get relevant experience from working there, it still isn’t as bad as getting relevant experience working some office job but not getting to meet bobo liat right!

If back then I chose to do some office job or something related to my field of studies, I would be paid much more than my expected. Why? Because I have related experience and a degree. Definitely pay more! Would a admin post want to pay some one 2.5k basic if they have a degree but only experience in waitressing? Of course not.

But if you have no experience at all, being a degree holder could give you a good jump start though as minimum they should pay you about 2k - 2.2k. Else if they are paying you lesser, mind as well don’t get a degree! Because poly grads get paid about 1.7k-1.9k. So why study for a degree if it’s no diff from poly?

I can’t believe it’s so fast! Next monday, NEW BEGINNING! We’ll see how it goes. No matter how shitty it may be, persevere! Everyone has to go through this some day. And Monday 8th September, is the start of this day for me! You could say I’m a bit excited. Yes I am. But I’m still 30% scared and 50% reluctant. Oh well, life still has to go on.

Actually I make this post sound so scary, but maybe it isn’t that scary? Only when you try, then you’ll know right? Alrights! Gambatte ne.

Watashi wa rai shu getsu-youbi hatarakimasu! Earn more okane! Watatshi wa ima gohan o tabemase. HUNGRY! Mata ne.

Zouk Flea and Easy yesterday was kinda shitty. Not as what we expected it to turn out like before. The space given was so crammed and the location was like shit! Well, what do you expect? Zouk practically squeezed almost 70 stalls in that place!

I mean, if you don’t have adequate space jolly well don’t try to squeeze 70 stalls in? Or maybe it’s just us being unlucky to get a crummy space. So in this sense, it’s unfair right? Because we are UNLUCKY, so we get a shit space while others might be luckier to get a better space and location which also means better sales.

Yes, when it comes to luck, there is no fair or unfair rule that applies. So in future, best is not to participate at all in any of their events so we wouldn’t get a chance to be unlucky again.

Duck and I will be flying again tomorrow! So fast. Kinda unprepared as just a moment ago I was busy packing for flea and easy and I was so tired I knocked out till today. Then now, I would have to get ready stuffs to fly off tomorrow! And it’s an early morning flight @ 6am! OMG!

Well, I have a lot of pending things to do. Like waiting for my remaining 21st birthday pictures so I can upload them soon, taking photos of the last collection of WH imported clothes, my job search, etc… And when I get back, I will have more things to do! Like a whole load more of picture takings for the new batch!

Sometimes I just feel that the world is so so so unfair. How come there are such things like rich and poor, ugly and pretty, successful and unsuccessful, lucky and unlucky, clever and dumb and ya the list goes on. Like isn’t it so unfair if you are born ugly and no one likes you. Or isn’t it so unfair to be born poor and have to slog the whole of your life. Or isn’t it damn unfair to be born dumb and so, always be unsuccessful.

Ya, then you say, "No what, it doesn’t mean that if you are born ugly you’ll always be ugly OR it doesn’t mean that if you are poor you will always be poor". BUT, if you are UNLUCKY, you will still be poor or ugly! Or, if you are unlucky, you could BECOME poor and ugly. And so, why is there such words like POOR, UGLY, DUMB, FAILURE etc in this world! SO I SAY THIS WORLD IS UNFAIR. And it really is.

Even if you are pretty, you will still think you are not pretty enough because there will be others who will be prettier than you. Even if you are rich, you will never think you are rich enough as there will be others who are still richer than you. Even if you are smart, you will still think that you are not smart enough as there will ALWAYS be someone who will be smarter than you.

So also, not only is this world unfair, it also never meets our expectations in life. Which makes things worse. And somehow, I hate the feeling. People say you have to work hard to get what you want in life. But what if you work hard and still don’t succeed? "Don’t give up!" Ya easy for you to say.

Maybe I am just plain lazy. Like I don’t want to work hard but want good returns! Who doesn’t right? Then you envy those people who earn big bucks or those who get famous or those who are born with wealth or marry a rich husband and something like that and wonder why it isn’t you.

Money makes the world go round. And everyone is working just for that one thing - Money.Without money you are nothing. Really envy those people who are able to do the things they like and earn really big bucks from it. Why couldn’t everyone be like that?

I’m sorry for all the ranting! Just got kinda EMO I dunno why! Like life is so unfair la. I hate the world!

These few days I had really quite some interesting experiences with strangers and super bad experiences with cabs (as usual)! You know I think I have bad blood with cabbys. Is like really bad bad karma with cabs I tell you! So I totally hate cabs!

In this week, I had been like some walking enquiry hotline and directional signage! Some days ago, I think I was at City Hall Interchange. I was listening to my Mp3 and this auntie came up to me sucking on a green mint sweet. She asked me, "eh, does this line go to Chen Du Shen?" in mandarin. Then I was like, "Chen Du Shen? Tan Tock Seng ah?" And she nodded. Chen Du Shen = Tan Tock Seng

So I replied, "Yes, this line is correct. You’ll have to take it till Novena and alight". And just as she was thanking me, she looking at me and I looking at her EYE to EYE, (I mean when some one is thanking you, you look at her in the eye right to be polite and when you are thanking some one you do so too yea?) her green mint sweet dropped right out of her mouth unto the floor! EEEKKKS!!!

To be honest, I did jump a bit (in shock)! It was a bit horrifying and it kinda startled me! And lucky the sweet didn’t drop on my leg or something if not I will……… I also not sure what I will do if it did drop on my leg but I’m quite sure I wouldn’t be very happy.

The auntie walked away in embarassment. She thank me half way then suddenly walk away leh! Like so weird lo. I know she paiseh but then so awkward of me to be standing there also lo.

Then when I reached AMK later taking the same train as her, I went to withdraw money to buy food back for my dad. After withdrawing, I had a lot of the ATM receipts in my wallet to throw away. So I stood there searching for all of my ATM receipts that I didn’t want.

Some auntie came and tapped me on my shoulder. I was still listening to my Mp3! Like was with this people? Can’t you ask some one who looks more free? I’m like clearing unwanted junk in my wallet then come disturb me!

She said something in mandarin and I couldn’t catch it. So when I said "hahhhh!?!" She just walked away. So how I know what she wants la? Then I continued to clear my wallet. Then just when I was almost done, she came over and tapped me on my shoulder again!

I was like so irritated already! I threw my last few receipts and followed her to this Citibank ATM machine. She asked me to help her withdraw money. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I said I don’t have your PIN number I can’t. Apparently she doesn’t read English. So when I asked her if she can read Chinese she said ya. So I clicked Chinese for her. But she still didn’t want to do it herself and asked me to help her.

She had this CHOU HAN (smelly sweat) smell coming from her lo! Very stinky leh! Then I really cannot stand it already! It smells like when your clothes don’t dry well that kinda smell. Only worse!

But I still helped her. I clicked amount she wanna withdraw and asked her to key in her PIN number. After successfully withdrawing her money, she asked me to go through once more with her the procedure of withdrawing money. I was like eh? Next time just click chinese and choose accordingly, I dunno what’s the order also.

She later then admitted she also didn’t know how to read chinese. ALAMAK! Then dunno say dunno la. WTH! Waste my time.

Then now come to cabs, I was with a hell load of stock for the flea market the night before the flea and I was late in meeting the bee @ paya lebar. So he didn’t have time to send me home. He dropped me outside the front gate of Traffic Police and waited together with me for a cab.

Just nice, a cab came by and the bee flagged it for me. BUT, IT DIDN’T STOP LOR! Why ah? I don’t understand why they don’t stop? It’s not a main road or what with heavy traffic. Dunno if I can COMPLAIN THEM OR NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then we saw another cab approaching! YAYY! But, just about 50m before reaching us, it did a 3-point turn and U-turned to the other direction. WTH! Like we are ghost lidat lor! Mad cabbies I tell you.

So I had no choice but to walk to the main road and cross the street (it isn’t exactly very far, but I have like heavy barang!) and flag a cab there.

Then the next day, the cab to the flea was horrible! David called a cab and asked him to bring us to Zouk. After we (leisy and I) packed all the stuffs in his boots, he double confirmed the location and David said "ZOUK!"

Later leisy and I were like chit-chatting in the cab, oblivious of our surroundings when suddenly David said, "Eh uncle, ZOUK leh not ZOO!"

I looked up and saw "Mandai" OMG! Stupid driver! Then by the time he made his way from mandai till zouk the fare was $22.50 la! + call charges is $25! But he said he will waive the call charge cuz it was his mistake. WTH! $22.50 still bad enough ok! The fare was only $12.50 when we took the cab home lor. So even plus call charges also $15 la from my house to zouk. We paid like almost 10 bucks more!!! SO ANGRY!!!

To hell with all these cab drivers! I know can’t blame them they hear wrongly but David already confirm with them the place again lor. Still can go wrong. Then the uncle still kept saying "next time you tell me kim seng road (or something like that) then I will know where le lah!" Like still don’t wanna admit mistake!

So I purposely said, "But I dunno where is Kim Seng Road leh, how i tell you?" (but i really dunno where is kim seng road!!!) So stupid la he! But freaking pissed!

Just about 12hrs before I fly! So fast.

As you can see, I’ve not updated for like 7 months! What the hell happened to me! It’s very expected of me anyway cuz I can’t consistently do something.

Well in these 7 months, just a short summary of what happened. I’m not too sure if I can remember though!

January
By right I should get my MC done at SGH to get my claim for my injury in April 2007. But I didn’t! Because I couldn’t accept the fact that I had to wait a freaking month for them to process a new MC and snail mail it to me.

I was actually at SGH already cuz the bee brought me down. But in the end, I decided that I should go home and search for the lost MC instead than to wait a month and pay 10 over bucks! So we went there for LUNCH ONLY. -REGRET REGRET!-

But to my utmost HORROR, I couldn’t find my MC! And so, it has dragged till now and I still haven’t gone down to get my MC re-done. So much for not wanting to wait a month for it and now I have just wasted half a year more for that!

February
WaddleHop and Leisy at Lime Flea Market on 23rd Feb. Sold quite a bit which we thought was NOT BAD! But considered to Zouk Flea and Easy in the later dates, it’s like SHIT! Sorry spoiler.

Took up Japanese lessons with leisy and hansy. Nihon go no benkyou shimasu! I really miss it now…….

March
Fat Cat’s Birthday.

30th March Zouk Flea & Easy. Super great returns! We sold all our vintage bags that we brought to Lime Flea (which we didn’t sell any at all)! I guess Lime Flea really is for 2nd hand items. Like poor people go there to dig for weird stuffs. I’ve seen a lot of maids!

There was this maid who even bargained with leisy for a cheaper price for something so cheap already. Leisy was selling 2nd hand tops for $2 each only and the maid wanted 3 pieces making that $6 right. She asked for $5! Like a hello, $1 only wanna bargain. Give you 3 piece some more leh! But leisy being the kind soul she is agreed. I tell you if it’s me I will demand money from the maid instead for being such a bully! Or more like a buay paiseh bargainer!

So Zouk was super good ok! We earned like almost 3 times more than Lime Flea la! Sold so many of the vintage bags! Good! We had a great position too la!

April
In Bangkok on the 3rd of April! Went with the bong and duck. Rate was sucky, about 22.61? Is like shit la. We shopped till we drop for 4 days straight! Walked till our legs couldn’t take it!

Bought great (not so great) stuffs for WaddleHop. Happy sales in April! The stock was super a lot and heavy! Our check in baggage allowance was only 15kg and my luggage was slightly heavier than that a bit. My hand carry alone is about more than 10kg! Some more, duck also as heavy as mine. Imagine how much we brought back!

May
Zouk Flea & Easy again on 18th May! This time sales wasn’t as good cuz our position totally sucked! Right at the stairs area where people can’t really linger around to browse cuz people behind them would want to pass by and they will be blocking the way (woah long sentence). Sales was slightly worse than first Zouk Flea but still better than nothing. We didn’t have enough BKK stock so we had to resort to same shit stuff in SG (and some stuffs are still stuck from then till now!). BAHHHH!

WaddleHop officially moved to LiveJournal where sales got much better than BlogSpot with a better layout but a very leychey comment-order system! Yayness!

June
The bee and me, 2 years anniversary!

Ting’s and bong’s 21st birthday celebrations. Tons and tons of cam-whoring sessions then. Ting and her dress code party and zk bong and her hit-zk-with-the-water-balloon party! Poor bong always kenna sabo one. But somehow you deserve it for being a prankster to everyone else from the start! Haha! But rememeber, I done you the least harm! Don’t get me on my day. Remember ok, I didn’t sabo you!

July
Albert’s birthday.

Till date, it’s ending of July already! So fast. In Bangkok AGAIN on 15th July till 18th July. Super fast and we’re back there again. It was like only 3 months back since we last went.

Went with duck only. Scary at first but after that we were like mad shoppers! Worst than the previous time. We shopped till our legs felt so sore right up to our thighs la! Next day body aching all over!

Everyday we ate our mou tat favourite CHICKEN WINGS! Only 20 baht for 3 pcs. We bought like 6 pcs and FEAST! And our favourite CHA-YAN and LAYS SEAWEED FLAVOUR!

This time the rate was much better! We change the first rate in SG was 24.13 (and we thought was super good lor!). But wait, before we left, we change another amount at the rate 24.2 (ok la, ma-ma desu). THEN, IN BANGKOK, it’s blardy 24.55 la! If we know we change ALL THERE! But how we know la. Just super power la the rate there. A pity we changed only like 1/4 of our money in BKK and like the remaining 3/4 with the loser rate. (1/2 change to 24.13, 1/4 to 24.2) VERY KE XI HOR!?

August
National Day.

Bee and my birthday. Yet another problem to fret over. So sian plan birthday. Maybe I’ve become very auntie lo. Just don’t like to plan already la. SG is so loser, no where interesting I can celebrate my birthday at lo! Just a simple dinner can already lo. Not everyone will be free to hang out also.

So little yet so much happened within these few months. Feel so bored at home sometimes. Like it’s so boring till I rather just lie on my bed and stare at my ceiling!

Yes it’s the happy-go-lucky lifestyle where I have no full time job or whatsoever but, it gets so boring sometimes when I really have nothing to do. It’s like I’m free, but my mum’s not home, my bro’s not home. I’m always home alone with my dad. And it’s so boring!

My dad has been bugging me to get a full time job soon. But I just don’t feel like it! I mean, I’m ok la. Just that need to find one that at least pays well. Else, I won’t take it! Very fussy but for my own good cuz I don’t wanna earn what I don’t deserve.

And the dilemma of wanting to master Japanese and getting a full time job is back again! Whenever I ask myself if I really need to get a job like what everyone is bugging me to, I’ll tell myself "then I won’t have time to take up a full time Japanese course!’

WTH! But I still don’t go about finding the school and all. Hey very expensive leh! Of course not say want learn go enrol learn one what right! So what do I want?

Haiis~ sore wa taihen desu ne. Mendousai desu.

You know I don’t know if it’s the Black Clouds again or is it because I’m jennsy that’s why such things happen to me. I believe no one has ever encountered something so peculiar yet maddening. It just enrages me!

Sometimes I wonder how dumb can someone get. Or how smart will they be. Anyway here’s what happened.

Like any other HR personnel will do when they receive your resume, they will call you right? So I applied for some job online and expected some fella to get back to me.

I was at the bees house that day of the phone call. The damn smart ass who I was quite certain was an interview call, called me at around 9am which was when I was still having my sweet dreams. As you know I do not wake up that early for nothing.

I silent her call as I didn’t want that hell of a noise to disturb my beauty sleep. 15 mins later it rang again. I silence it once more. The third time around 10am that retard still rang me! And I was so pissed! I turned my phone to SILENT MODE and went back to sleep.

Around 1030am, the bees phone rang. And it was my dad. He called and ask why I didn’t pick his calls. I explained to him that some idiot was trying to destroy my life by calling so early when I don’t intend to pick her calls so I placed my phone to SILENT MODE to avoid the tragedy she could have caused.

My dad then started becoming jumpy and all saying, "THAT WAS FROM THE HOSPITAL!" I was thinking like "WHAT?! HOSPITAL? WHAT HAPPENED!?"

Turns out that someone from some hospital by the name of Cynthia was looking for me for an INTERVIEW! Big deal! I knew that. I was avoiding her calls!

Don’t understand why my dad was so jumpy about it and he asked me to call her back right that instant even after telling him I will do that LATER.

In fact I felt so pissed as to why she had to call my home when she couldn’t reach me. Usually, they would leave a voice message.

So I called that pain in an ass but no one picked after it rang for like 2 mins. OK! SNOOZE TIME AGAIN! I couldn’t be bothered la k since she didn’t pick her phone either.

15 mins later, my phone rang. And it’s her again. I picked the call (in my sleepy voice - which isn’t very nice right! that’s why I didn’t intend to pick her call!)

Anyway to summarize the conversation, she wanted to call me down for interview at 12pm and when I agreed, she wanted to change it to 1145am. I didn’t have so much time to play around with her so I just said NO, I’M FINE WITH 12PM! And she goes on trying to psycho me to come 15mins earlier. And I being the bastard I am, kept rejecting her. She ended in a very frustrated tone saying "Ok la OK LA! You come at 12pm la I will send you an email…"

Then I didn’t receive the email. So I just forgot about her. But, she called again on Saturday asking if I’ve received her mail. I said No. And she went on about asking me to fill up some application form in the email that she was going to send me right then.

Yeah so I agreed and she buggered-off. Not till half an hour later she called again! Asking the same question, "Have you received my email?" HELLO! I’m not even online and does she expect me to go check immediately after since she said she sent me the mail? I can choose not to!

So I said I will go check la. So I checked my mail, yes it was in. But I had no time to fill up the form yet. I was meeting the duck to get stock.

After a peaceful hour, she rang me again at around 1pm and asked me the most annoying question that has grown on me, "Have you received my email?"

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I could slap her!!!!!!!!!!

"YES I DID. But i havent filled up the form. I’m not free!" She then told me to do so by that day itself as she’ll be busy on Monday when I come down for the interview. I mean seriously that’s really her problem you know. (But still, I was nice, did up the form on Saturday and attached it back to her.)

She also suddenly asked if I was free to come at 10am now. WTH. She think it’s funny? Well, I told her I could only make it at 1030am and she was like, "Err..1030am is ok la but if earlier abit can?" WTF? Ok. 1015am then.

Then she said the most pissing words, "Oh ok can 1015am. Because the other time when I spoke to you, 12pm seemed to be quite incovenient for you right? So 1015am better right?"

WTF????? I was like, "No, ACTUALLY I’m very convenient with coming at 12pm!" And the she said, "So you want 1015am or 12pm?" And I was like damn pissed. So I said, "OK, I’m fine with both. If it’s more convenient for you that I come at 1015am then 1015am ok?" And she like a mad woman said,"Ohhh okok! Thank you Thank you ah! So see you 1015am."

Yes, finally peace at last. NOT QUITE YET! She called again yesterday! OMG on a freaking SUNDAY? Is she a loser or what. At first she called my HP but it was in the room and I was having lunch so I didn’t hear it till my dad passed me the phone telling me it had a missed call.

Few seconds later, my house phone rang! It gotta be her I bet. So David picked the call and yeap, I was right. I signalled to him telling him to tell her I’m having LUNCH FOR GOD’S SAKE! I’M A NORMAL PERSON WHO HAVE 3 MEALS A DAY AND NOT SOMEONE WHO’S AWAITING A MAD WOMAN’S CALL 24/7.

So she told David I had some missing data in the application form i re-attched to her. And told him to tell me to send it to her ASAP. Ok, right after lunch I went to fill up the so called missing data and sent it to her again!

Now, the best part is here. Today, I went for the interview. Went to adminstration office to look for her as told. And know what? She’s on MC! She bugged me 24/7 to fill up the form and come down at a retarded time slot that would convenient her and she went on MC!

SHE THINK FUNNY AH?! Then I had to re-fill up the freaking form which was exactly the same one I had filled up yesterday online. She damn piss people off lor.

Don’t know sway or what lor.

I feel so guilty with myself for not listening to JJ Lin’s most recent album which was like ages ago. I know. I’m really busy k. I keep telling myself that I must listen to his songs soon. But who knew it dragged till TODAY!

YES TODAY! The day I fell in love with his music all over again! Gosh I can’t take it man! He never fails to surprise me with his fantastic song compositions!

Actually I was looking out for Cyndi’s songs because her new album has launched! I know I’m so evil, I get all excited to hear Cyndi’s songs when they’re still fresh but leave JJ’s till now. I’m sorry JJ! I’ve disappointed you! *Sob*

Well, I’ve found all Cyndi’s new songs in her new album Fly Cyndi. Her theme song named "Piao Piao" meaning "Fly Fly, or Float Float" Haha! I guessed Fly Cyndi sounds much better than Float Cyndi! Haha.

Her songs are like, Errrr.. not that fantastic. Yes some people will start jumping and celebrating saying "I TOLD YOU SO! CYNDI SUCKS!" Don’t be so mean la. Haha.

Compared to her past album Magic Cyndi, no songs so far has hit me! In Magic Cyndi, I fell deeply in love with the song "Na Nian Xia Tian Ning Jing De Hai". "Ai De Tian Ling Ling" was ok too. At least I felt it’s better than "Piao Piao".

But not to worry, one or a few of her songs will stick unto me real soon. So while dowloading Cyndi’s new songs, I remembered about JJ lin! How evil can I get right?

So I downloaded his whole album. And after listening to Cyndi’s oh-so-not-very-fantastic songs, my heart just melted away when I heard JJ’s songs! OMG!

It’s SUPER FANTASTIC! So like I said, I felt so guilty for not doing so earlier! *Bangs head on wall* I don’t understand why people say JJ lin is gay or his music sucks. These people are really retarded I must say! Who cares if he’s gay or what? His music speaks louder than words.

I could support JJ Lin forever man! His song are always nice! And you can always expect it to be this way! *Guilty-Guilty*

Going to listen to his songs all over again. And do up WaddleHop too. Tata~

LiveJournals Writer’s Block had this question posted, "Have you ever Googled your own name? How do you feel about the results?" and so I decided to try googling my name to see what the results were and how I would feel about it.

If you were to think I’m so self conceited like Reggie Mantle that I had already googled my name before, sorry to say I DIDN’T! However, I do very often glance at my own reflection (in mirrors, glass, anything that would reflect my face back at me) if there is any chance to and this I don’t deny. My hairs the problem that’s why! MY HAIR!

Truthfully, I would have googled my name if my name was really special but Jennifer is too common to google. There are millions of Jennifer’s out there. So why bother?

So I googled my full name.

The End.

There isn’t any results shown! So end of story.

Ok that was because I placed quotes on my names. So when I removed the quotes, my Friendster Page was found together with some Jennifer’s and Goh’s and Seng’s and Yuee’s. So I said, all the common stuff.

This showed up:

NUS Business School Alumni Roll

Jennifer isn’t a Goh, and Chea Suan isn’t a Jennifer. Chan chee SENG took my SENG. and YUEE was no where to be found.

Then, I found this: OMG!

NAMA NO_KP NEGERI `AINUL YAQEEN BINTI AHMAD HAZIZI 87********** …

Don’t tell me it’s the army shit. I really have no idea. I clicked on the page and it led me to this page with a list of a lot of names and IC numbers. And what is NEGERI in Malay? Everyone from the list has SELANGOR stated under NEGERI. Is it the place the IC was made or something?

But just a wild guess, I think it’s those people born in my year 1987 who had their ICs or something made at SELANGOR MALAYSIA? Because all their IC numbers start with 87 ma. But please don’t scare me. I hope it’s not the army thingy.

I DON’T WANNA DO NATIONAL SERVICE. I’M A GIRL YOU KNOW STUPID PEOPLE!

Anyway that’s about it. That’s all google had of me. Trying to keep a low-profile. HAHA. thats funny.

It’s been so long since my last update. So maybe I’ll just add some stuffs here. WaddleHop is doing really fine and I’ve been so busy I didn’t have the time to DJ here. Anyway nothing much did happen besides going to Bintan with zk, cw and the bee during the end of October. There are too many pictures to upload all here, anyway it’s mostly in my photo gallery.

Trying to start finding a job soon but really lazy to. I can’t imagine life in the corporate world beginning to start knocking on my door already. I’m only 20! Yes, I know that I’m not very old but neither am I young anymore! So I better get my ass moving before I become such a useless bum who only thinks of doing part-time jobs (like RH?) NO WAY!

Thinking of starting a full-time job really irks me because that means it’ll be the end of my happy-go-lucky days and also meaning more COMMITMENT. But of course I wouldn’t mind if my job isn’t that constraining that requires me to work like more than the required 8 hours a day.

Besides finding jobs, I’m also looking for courses in Japanese with Leisy. We were thinking of full-time courses so that we could get the course done with real quickly. But if I do get a job, how am I to commit full-time to Japanese? And if I don’t get a job so that I can concentrate on Japanese, wouldn’t I be dragging my chance to get more experience?

So the solution is this, get a job and do part-time Japanese. But the frequency of any part-time Japanese course is like twice a week! And that’s too little for me because it would mean it will take like 5 over years to master it. Too long for me.

So you see, I want the best of both worlds but none works out. So how? So I’m DJ-ing again as usual because of my indecisiveness. I can’t make up my mind which I should give priority to. LOSER.

If only we could earn big bucks doing something you like that doesn’t require you to do boring 9 to 5 office jobs. Yeah, how I wished.

Anyway, after saying so much with the blog titled as "cab-snatcher" I’m sure I’m not getting to the point right now. So the story goes back to yesterday where Leisy, Tasha, Bertsy and I met out for the last time as Tasha would be going to Oklahoma real soon. That lucky girl. I really miss Oklahoma now come to think of it.

To think then Leisy and I really dreaded the thought of leaving comfy Singapore and go to a far away land in America in a state called Oklahoma City where we have never heard of. I only heared of New York, San Francisco, Washington yeah and so on. But not Oklahoma. Some might even mistaken it as a state in Japan perhaps?

But things went well there. We had fun, the weather was amazing, the food was unique (and unhealthy), the shows on TV were interesting, the environment and scenery were breath-taking yada yada yada. And I could go on trust me. But I just realised I’ve went out of point again. Maybe I could have continued to when we reached Taiwan after the 3 weeks in Oklahoma!

So the 4 of us met out and had Sushi buffet at SUKI SUSHI! Yummy! Tasha, Leisy and my favourite place of visit! We later went down to Mind Cafe at Prinscep (is that how you spell it?) and played some games.

It was damn funny. At first we were playing Charades and Leisy and I were a team, Tasha and Bertsy another team. So I tried describing things from the zoo to Leisy and she guessed 3! When it was Bertsy’s turn to describe, Tasha only guessed 1 and she said NO NOT FAIR! You must tell me the category of the card. But we didn’t know and I myself didn’t describe the category like "Things in the Zoo" to her but she still managed to guess anyway.

Then Tasha was like NO NO RESTART RESTART! Wahahaha. So cute la she. And we were like CANNOT LA WHERE GOT LIKE THAT ONE!

But we still continued to play and there was this time Bertsy was trying to describe the word "weight-lifting" so he did the action with the sponge pole gripped in his palms moving his arms up and down several times. It was freaking funny ok!

Tasha still couldn’t guess what he was describing after a long time and that made Bertsy look like a fool! Wahaha! Even Bertsy stopped after a while and said I LOOK LIKE A FOOL! Yes you do Bertsy.

Then we switched to Truth or Dare Jenga. It was very embarassing when the Jenga fell because it was really noisy and pieces flew off the table.

Then we played LOOT. Some dumb get-the-most-coins pirate game. Tasha was so funny. Because the game is that if you put a junk ship out with a certain number of coins and no one attacks the ship with a pirate, after it’s back to your turn, the ship is yours for keeps!

So Bertsy placed a ship down, and my turn I did the same. So did Leisy. And if Tasha don’t attack Bertsy’s ship, Bertsy will keep it as it’ll be his turn next. Tasha then placed a ship down and said FREE AH THIS ROUND! ALL GET FREE COINS OK!

Then Bertsy kept his ship, so now he either draw a card or attack any ships or place another ship. Guess what he did? He attacked Tasha’s ship! So she had to fight back to get her ship and it means, no free coins for her! Wahaha. Damn funny la. Then Tasha was like WAH LAO BERTRAND!

Damn funny I tell you. Tasha’s so funny. She tried stealing cards from the deck but wasn’t at all discreet about it. Made Leisy and I say EHH TASHA AH! Haha. Then she helped me draw a card but drew 2 cards for me instead! I was like EH ONE CARD ONLY LA and she was like ONE CARD ONLY? ALAMAK! LOL. Pretentious eh!

Anyway, we went to the arcade after that and I played Guitar Freaks! Guess the song? CUTIE PIE! Wahaha the easiest song on the list. Well, I got a S for Super leh! And Bertsy had a D! BOOOOO!

But the other stage was crap. Only scored D! The last stage was the worst. I chose the song because it was those cutesy japanese song. You know the kind Ai Otsuka would sing. And it’s so depressing because we didn’t even manage to finish the stage and then GAME OVER! Oh well. This shows cutesy songs aren’t exactly cutesy. Cutesy on the outside, tough on the inside.

We played that Percussion Freaks as well and the door closed on me! You know what door. The door that closes BOOM! with the words GAME OVER that follows. I’m no percussionist.

Then we played this shooting game where we can play up to 4 players! Just nice the 4 of us. How exciting! We are going to war together! It’s so ironic how Bertsy kept telling everyone before the game "try not to die so fast" when he was the first to die. WAHAHA!

DIAO~ And I was the last man standing! Can you believe it! I must have been shielding my way through. Haha.

So here is where I finally get to the point of my blog title. I know I don’t know how to prioritize my story! Anyway, so Leisy and I left and took a cab back from Yio Chu Kang.

We were outside Presbyterian High School waiting to hail a cab. It seemed like forever waiting for vaccant cabs to drive by so tenchi and I were engaged in our conversation of how we enjoyed the day.

Suddenly, (panicky music) we saw a cab alighting a passenger at the bus stop about 50m ahead! Oh my I told tenchi, "There’s a cab there! Prepare to flag it!"

And as soon as I turned away from Leisy, I saw this woman in her mid-thirties perhaps standing 20m ahead of us! SHIT ON HER! I asked Leisy, "What is she doing there? Is she trying something funny?"

Leisy shrugged her shoulders. The next thing I knew when I saw the cab light turned to green and started moving off, that sonafagun stretched out her hand and started flagging for the cab. OUR CAB!

I was pissed man. I hate cab-snatchers. I shouted at her "EXCUSE ME MAM’!" She continued to wave at the cab. Then I walked towards her and shouted, this time even louder, "EXCUSE ME MAM’!!!!!!"

The cab stopped in front of her and she turned around with me almost 10m behind her and said, "Ohhh, I was just flagging the cab for you. Ya. Flag for you." And she signalled to the cab to go ahead to pick us.

I was burning with anger! I retorted, "Yeahh right you were flagging for us!" and got on the cab. Man do you hate such people? Boy should they all just disappear from earth and never come back.

So shameless. Don’t they feel the shame of stealing cabs from innocent young girls. How do you expect them to teach their children morals and values when they themselves behave so inconsiderately and disgustingly.

I think I would dig a hole and hide myself in it if I ever have a mum who does such stuffs and tell me not to do so myself. Such hypocrites should burn in hell! Especially if they try to snatch my cab.

Really wonder what’s going through their heads when they can step in front of the line and shamelessly flag for the cab right under your nose! Are they thinking, "WAHH I’M SUCH A PRO AT CUT-QUEUE LEH!" or "I THINK THE PEOPLE QUEUEING BEHIND ARE SIAO ONE LA. STAND THERE FOR NOTHING ONE." or "I AM INVISIBLE, I AM INVISBLE, NO ONE CAN SEE ME! NO ONE CAN SEE ME! THEY DON’T KNOW WHO STOLE THEIR CAB! MUAHAHAHAH!"

Please think before you rob someone of their cabs. Because if you do such shameless stunts, you are no different from WHORES and GIGGOLOS who do dirty tricks for their own gains.

Well, maybe that’s kinda harsh. But it works fine with the description! At least I know I don’t steal people’s cabs.

YOU KNOW I REALLY FREAKING HATE FRIENDSTER! THEY DID IT TO ME AGAIN! I HATE YOU FRIENDSTER! Everytime they would go to this bloody Cannot Open Page Window Explorer when I click SAVE to publish a post!

I don’t know why but I thought I should have just high-lighted whatever I was done with and copy it in case anything happen. BUT, I didn’t because I thought it would be OK. But who knows! SHIT HAPPENS LIKE FUCK! And I’m freaking pissed because this is not the first, nor second, nor third nor million times it has happened!

I SHIT ON YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I have to re-type this again! No more detailed descriptions! Just STRAIGHT TO THE POINT NOW! I CAN’T REMEMBER WHAT I WROTE! FUGLY FRIENDSTER.

Things to update since I was gone for almost 2 weeks. I have been doing up the ducks and my BlogShop and it’s finally opened! Yes, I’ve mentioned that before!

Pay’s coming in tomorrow night and it’s only slightly over 200 bucks! Which is very pathetic!

Mooncake festival has been almost weeks over but still wanna say Raffles Hotel Mooncakes are so nice!

Very Yummy!

Also, we find this fella very familiar and reminds us of someone.

Don’t you think he looks like itchy monster?

We will also miss our Granny Alan! He is so funny!

Granny Alan Ong!

We (the duck and I) even drew him a portrait in memory of him and his famous "ORLIGINAL FROM THE LAFFLES HOTEL" speech of his!

Looks like him lor!

He also wrote this note which I think is damn funny! I found it sticked unto some boxes of Baked Mooncakes in the cupboard.

The note reads, "moring, ALL the staff pls take notes 25 box pine nut Reserve by Jonathan tee for Guest TQ HAPPY work. Alan 17/9/07"

Don’t say I’m evil but it’s really damn funny la! MORING! and HAPPY WORK! WAHAHAHAHAHAH! Evil. But he doesn’t mind us laughing him. Does he?

Anyway Pooh bear is very happy! But look what the bee did to him! He bullied the bear!

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Poor Pooh! Screaming for help!

But pooh is very happy because I finally finished the cross-stitch key chain for him! It’s like 1682 stitches for that small shit! I really under-estimated myself! To think I could have completed it within a day! Boy, was I wrong. Even 6 hours straight of stitching, I was only half-way through ONE SIDE of the key chain! There’s two sides that’s why! Madness!

Lookey at pooh bears new key chain!

At first it was all white with holes

Then taaa-daaah! Finished all the colors!

Then it’s almost completed with the outline

But that’s just ONE SIDE! Still have the other side!

The other side is done too now!

Yeahh finally the key chain is complete!

The front

The back

That’s about it. After friendster giving me problems I’ve have no idea what I’ve missed out! What’s more things that happened almost weeks ago! Thank God there are pictures to remind us of the past!

Ok now, I’m going to be smarter and high-light and copy my whole post before posting. I don’t wanna be pulling my hair out again when I see it fail again!