realm of reality

Yes finally I’m off today! Well, and I’ve got nothing to do at home. Just a  few days ago I was wishing for this day to come so I can relax! But now it’s here, I also dunno what to do with it!

But what’s worse is the thought of reporting to work tomorrow. And I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s stressing me out! I dunno why I’m feeling this way but I really dread going to work. It’s like every moment I’m thinking about it; what will it be like today? Good or Bad? I’m scared of calls! Last week I even felt like resigning!

Maybe it just takes time. Cuz I’m feeling much better now, a bit more confident. And I don’t feel like I should resign just yet cuz I’m getting the hang of it now. So yeah, it takes time to master the product well, what to do in certain situations etc.

And once I’m almost familiar with my product knowledge and know what to do and how it should be handled, it should be a breeze then. No wonder some pple can stay so long in this line.

Some of my colleagues had given me some encouragement in staying and it’s true that in the beginning it’s tough. It’s like when you just started mastering Maths it was tough, but after many rounds of practice, no problem can get in your way!

And I hope for this day to come. Patience. There’s still a lot of things to learn from and everyday is a learning process. Even those who have been here for years still have queries to many of the customer’s questions.

Some tell me to look at it positively and it won’t seem all that bad. Treat it like I’m helping someone to solve their problems instead of focusing on how they put it across to me. Even though there are times some pple are stupid to understand the problem but our job is to get it across to them.

Another also tells me it’s such an easy job if you look at it positively! Don’t bother of what they say! No where out there is paying you this much just to do what you’re doing! It’s such an easy job and they pay you well!

Well they better be paying us well man! Cuz if they were paying lesser I would definitely leave. It’ not worth it at all ok! I could become crazy one day if I was not emotionally stable enough. Then they only pay you a measely salary of thousand plus GROSS every month? Puh-leaseeee… totally not worth at all. So of cuz they should pay me more! Else in the first place I wouldn’t have taken up the job.

(I’m not trying to say a thousand plus gross every month is little. I’m trying to say that it’s not worth working for that amont; I rather work elsewhere which isn’t that stressed. I mean 1000+ can range from 1100 - 1900 right! Well of cuz not below 1500 cuz is totally cannot make it la. I work part time also can get that amount)

Yeah I’m trying; this is such a negative job. You get to hear all the negative comments everyday. But I only tell myself one thing: Think of the MONEY! That’s the only thing I’m working for cuz I’m definitey not working for the fun the job. HEY THIS JOB ISN’T FUN AT ALL OK. So I really shouldn’t take it to heart.

Tough job. Maybe should consult zeekee on human behaviour and how to handle them! LOL. Or zeekee should be in my job for some experience on all kinds of pple! Well you really need a positive mind and attitude in this job so that it does not affect your life. Cuz I believe it could really affect you. Just like now, I’m afraid to go to work!

But I really got to think positively now. I hope. I mean how can you feel great when pple say things like, “It’s such a stupid procedure; You and your organisation you are working for is dumb; SHUT UP; You’re irritating; Your organisation is causing me a lot of problems (which is their own mistakes ok!)” etc.

And you have to bear with their SHOUTING and rantings and complains and unhappiness and inconvenience and disappointments and suggestions etc. Which mostly isn’t our fault that happens. It’s due to their stupidity that causes such things and they put the blame on us.

Stupid pple right? If I could I surely will give them a good one. But no choice I can’t! So many kinds of pple in the world. I wish I could eliminate all of them! Rarrrrgh!!!

Sounds like time for more CRISIS CORE! I’ve been playing it frequently while on the way to work these few days. It’s the only game in the psp I can play lo. The bobo put all his motor GP, car racing, vitual tennis, boxing, soccer games inside and deleted my GOLDEN COMPASS and PUZZLE QUEST! Now I can only play crisis core.

I WANT TO PLAY MY GOLDEN COMPASS ALTHOUGH I’VE COMPLETED IT. I STILL WANT TO PLAY! stupid bobo.